Update: I'm Back

[shiori_makiba]

 Sorry for the long silence, everyone.

My mental health decided to give me fits all of a sudden and the stress of . . . everything . . . did not help. My emotions have been very up and down and all over. And anxiety makes it difficult for me sleep at the best of times. So  I just have not had the spoons to interact all that much.

I feel better now. I could be better but I think this is about as good I'm going to get while Agent Orange and others like him are running this much of the globe.

Comments

[alatefeline]

Okays. *offers an internet hug*

[shiori_makiba]

Thanks *accepts hug*

[chanter1944]

Shiori! I wondered where you'd gone! Welcome back. Virtual hugs are a standing offer, if so desired.

You get the happy lilac tree icon.

Thanks

[shiori_makiba]

Sorry for worrying you. My main method for dealing with being feeling overwhelmed by all of things is to withdraw - a lot.

I'm trying to be better about reaching out to good support (i have in irl and here on DW, thankful but anxious brain is very good at convincing that it won't help or make fun of me for needing. Logically, I know that's not true. But anxious brain doesn't listen to logic. And sometimes you don't realize the bad tape has been rolling and infecting your thoughts until it gets bad. Getting better at handling this stuff in a healthier manner but it's a work in progress.

I usually find hugs, virtual or others, desired. *hugs*

Pretty tree!

Lilac is such a cheerful color, isn't it?

*hugs*

[ng_moonmoth]

Welcome back! Looking forward to seeing more from you!

Re: *hugs*

[shiori_makiba]

Thank you!

*hugs back*

[siliconshaman]

*hug* offered.

Glad to see you back, I understand about the the lack of spoons and wanting to go net-dark and curl up in a hole. [see icon]

Not suggesting you should necessarily do this, although you could, but I set a reminder for myself in google to do a 'still alive' post every few days when I hole up.

Thanks

[shiori_makiba]

Hug accepted.

It's a good suggestion. Sounds healthier than just not communicating at all - and a quick "I'm still alive, just running on empty" post sounds doable even when the spoons are low.

Re: Thanks

[siliconshaman]

Glad I could help... trick is to set a reminder to yourself in google calender or something, because if you're like me you don't necessarily remember to do it when you're that low on spoons.

If you need any other ideas, just ask. This area I have a wealth of coping mechanisms for.

Re: Thanks

[chanter1944]

*hugs* Nothing at all to be sorry about, don't worry. Anxiety brain and I are old friends/foes, so I entirely get it.

Lilacs are *marvelous*. Lilac season is my absolute favorite part of Midwestern spring. Too short a season is the truth, though; wow but lilacs don't stick around long!

Re: Thanks

[shiori_makiba]

I appreciate it. I wish you luck and strength in your battle against our mutual frienemy. It is a wily one.

Re: Lilacs

On the one hand, shame that it doesn't last long.

OTOH, maybe it's short season helps you appreciate it. Because you know you're going to get a short time with it.

Re: Thanks

[shiori_makiba]

*nods*

Thanks - I just might take you up on that. Can't have too many coping mechanisms.